“Courage is …to tell the story of who you are with your whole heart.”
–Dr. Brené Brown’s lecture
I’ve tried to write this post several times in the past month. It started with a breakup. It took a detour with an empowering video I watched today on Youtube that essentially says the people that feel the most loved and connected are also the ones that embrace vulnerability. Even writing that word has a level of difficulty to it.
When I first started this experiment, I thought truly living had to do with making each moment count in big ways. Travel. Trying new fun things (like I did the other day with trampoline dodge ball). Exciting adventures. New vistas. Action-packed life!
I’m realizing that the moments I feel most alive are when I’m opening my heart to someone. Or when I’m taking a risk. Or when I confess my deepest fears. Those are the moments that take real courage. They can be absolutely terrifying but also incredibly freeing. What’s more, I’m learning that when I let my guard down, people surprise me in the most beautiful and loving ways.
My most recent relationship opened my heart wide open. The last time that happened I was 19 and the easiest way of dealing with it was to numb out and unconsciously set my heart on autopilot, “coasting” through most of my 20’s. I don’t need to do that again. Instead, I can embrace my vulnerability (gulp), trusting that my heart will take me exactly where I need to go.